I recorded this before the news of my grandpa, but I still wanted to go ahead and put this up to let you guys know what’s going on with PumpsandRoses and Haus Of Rosey Banks…Sorry JaRon for the name slip up!! -Stay Rosey You Guys.
I have always been pretty open with my audience in my highest points of Love and Life, and myconfused moments. Then, a point came when I couldn’t properly deaal with those things, and found myself shunned from the world on my own merit, For the shear fact that I hated not being absolutely sure of what my world is. Confused and insecure has never been mycup of tea, I never had something affect my whole being and in the mist of trying to figure it all out I never quite lost my cool, although I put my pride on the line so many times only to be defeated on many occasions…
I have not been able to do one of these in awhile ,but I just want to keep it simple in life you’ll be faced with some hard decisions ultimately it is on you to work hard , fight for what you believe in, and just take that risk , I guess the fall is much sweeter when you didn’t just play it safe , but actually put in a hard smart fight…with that being said I’m going to take my own words to use.
Hmmm…So you really wanna know what we’ve been listening to besides BEYONCE’ ! Haaha .well Some new some old here is a slight list of what we have on repeat.
I am proud to say after about two months of crafting “PUMPSANDROSES” on my own I found a true PARTNER in Bree, and she is officially with the team. Check her out on twitter @http://twitter.com/#!/uCanCallMeBree.
This is an important lesson to remember when you’re having a bad day, a bad month, or a shitty year. Things will change: you won’t feel this way forever. And anyway, sometimes the hardest lessons to learn are the ones your soul needs most. I believe you can’t feel real joy unless you know what it means to fail. You can’t know what it’s like to feel holy until you know what it’s like to feel really fucking evil. And you can’t be birthed again until you’ve died. – Kelly Cutrone
This is so perfect for me ,because a lot of things haven’t gone how I would hope for recently , but I haven’t really helped the situations by complaining so much. Sometimes I complain to the point I feel guilty that’s why I recently decided to give myself one day to feel down after that it’s back to building the brand ,and I also decided to get rid of this potty mouth that I’ve recently picked up *washes mouth out with soap* but it’s no fun always complaining and whining it’s like being the Debby Downer NOBODY wants to be her It’s sooo unattractive!
Today I sat and reflected on who I was, Who I am, and exactly who it is that I’m growing to be. At first I thought of some shy girl who was scared of everything often intimidated ,and scared to express who she was. Then I thought back to about two years ago when it seemed like things were going bad left and right and I couldn’t control it . Which was new for me I was always sheltered from true pain and hate thanks to my mother. so once it finally happened I didn’t know what to do with myself having people blatantly hate me was so new, but then eventually with my back against the wall and finally alone (single) I was able to truly find out who Crystal was and settling was nowhere in me and I realized that was what I’d been doing for two years. I stayed alone explored every depth of my mind. I realized how much I loved art picked back up with my love of dance and after nine months of soul-searching and reading met a guy who I can truly say is the love of my life :).
With that being said I started a new chapter in my life which I was allowed to be me at all times , never having to suppress my feelings and knowing that no matter what happens the love is still there. Which allowed for me to be more open to other people more loving, more caring, less selfish. More willing to give and more willing to learn. It’s often times the best feeling in the world knowing there is someone you could take with you know matter where you go in life and the only place you want to go is to the top , because you only want to give them the best. Which leads me to who I want to be a woman who is worldly, educated, fulfilled,OPEN,Spontaneous,most of all succesful and in love with the guy that I spoke of today who made everything alright.